Last Days

Oh my gosh, I've been so stressed out! I still have feelings for Andy, and he just doesn't get it. I'm also trying to move on, but it's hard. I don't want to make things sound dramatic or get everyones underwear all tied up in a bunch, but I'm sorry-I'm passing on in a week. I can't deal with things...losing Andy...that guy being here-I mean if I don't do it to myself, then he's going to hurt me badly...and it's just like a bunch of little stressors combining to make something huge that I can't handle. Ugg...I've been trying to be happy though because I want to be happy, and I want others to be also. Please don't like go around telling people or calling police if you read this-the police have already been called, and it doesn't need to happen again.
Anyways, I was pretty hyper today for like no reason...I mean I didn't eat or drink anything, I was just in like a happy-like mood today. I feel like talking a lot, but no one's around as of now. Why does highschool have to be soo dramatic? I mean come on-it's the same as middle school but we are like older and stuff, it's just high school...I don't know how to explain myself here-so this is just a lost cause. I miss middle school. I thought my hair looked cute today, but that's just me.
Well, there's not really much else to talk about...imagine that-you would think that in my last days I would actually have something to say to SOMEONE, but no. Well, I guess I'll just make this like a series called, "Last Days" or something. I'll figure it out later. Just please promise me, I want to make these last days fun, and I want them to be happy...please be happy for me. I want ya'll to be...I love everyone in some way or another...Just when you see me, smile. I want these days to be memories that you can remember and keep in your hearts forever, and ones that can keep my spirit alive. Thanks for everything you all have ever given me.
Thanks.

Something

Ok, I am so bored right now and I have no clue what to write about-I'll think about that a little more and hopefully update again soon!!!Lalalalala...Ok, nothing in my mind, I'll write again later I guess...

Give me ideas people!!!

Life

Life can be good or bad, it's the way you look at it. Is the glass half full or half empty? Our society needs more optimism. Everyone complains about everyone else, but they find themselves perfectly fine. We all judge others, but we all hate it when others judge us. It's true think about it. People get hurt by it. Some people are successful and then others end up on the streets with nothing. Others have problems that we need to at least try to understand like depression, diseases, and suicidal thoughts. We should try to pay it forward. It's where one person helps three people, then those three people each individually help three more people-that automatically means twelve people have been helped because of one person, and it keeps progressing. We need to help each other and we will be helped ourselves. We need to realize (for those non-atheists) that God will put us in our place. I remember putting a deadline for Him like...get me this in 5 months. Think about it, it's not right. I'm telling Him that I want something at this time and He must get me it now. If He wants me to have something then He will give it to me no matter how long it takes. I have to say this entry wasn't that good in writing because it's very random and almost makes no sense, but that is life. Confusing...

A Thought to the Future

I might quote a lot from a my friend Mark who is 21 years old because I believe in a lot of things he says. I don't have much to say right now so I'm going to just go ahead and start in on something Mark and I talked about today, the subject-kissing. As you probably know, I am a deep believer in God, and so is Mark. I never thought I would say this or think of it, but now I am in favor of it. I am going to save kissing for marriage. I want people to respect who I am. People in our society now think that if you aren't with someone there is something wrong with you. Well, there isn't. I think it's a great idea. As Mark said,(but in different words), I only want to kiss my husband not someone else's husband.
"Perhaps the most important reason is that I want to guard our purity. Let me put it delicately: you can't cross home plate if you refuse to even go to first base. I have never heard of anyone giving in completely without kissing first. The best way to avoid falling into the Grand Canyon is to stay out of Arizona." as Mark put it.
I want that first kiss to be special. So what if it's lousy? The person I marry(if I do), we can learn together. I don't mind someone else not making this commitment, but it would be an awesome thing. You can't ever really miss a kiss. Every missed kiss is actually a saved kiss. It can be made up for the rest of our lives after we are married. I think everyone should consider this commitment-I really don't think you could regret this decision.
*The decision to save kissing is worthless unless it's made out of a desire to love God wholly and to love your future spouse wholly. Make sure all of your actions -- both kissing and not kissing -- are done out of love. Do it for them.

An Average American

For those who don't know me...my name is Amy and I am fifteen years old. I am just an average American. I will probably never be famous, I am not skinny, I am not the brightest person at times, but I am myself and I believe in myself. I do believe in God 100%+ despite what anyone says to contradict that idea. I am an original person, I don't try to be anyone else than who I am. I am in marching band-I play the flute, possibly the piccolo soon. I play one sport-bowling. I have varous other hobbies like swimming, basketball, hanging out with friends, etc. I will write more on some beliefs that I want other people to think about later. I am single-and content with that. I have my friends and those special few who I would trust my life to. I have my problems too. I'm not the happiest person alive nor the sadest, but things are always changing. I am becoming happier because I am starting to realize God has his place for me, and I will eventually get there. I will write again later. I hope that anyone reading this would also send me what they believe on my opinions, I am always open to other ideas. If anyone wants to email me, they can email me at icebaby3_15@hotmail.com and I will try to answer any questions sent. I hope to hear from everyone!

-Amy-